I will try to make this a short post. We are still in Detroit with family and have kept a low profile these two weeks. This has given me a lot of time with my thoughts which have been a bit consumed with my own mortality. I posted last week about the passing of my fellow MBC sister. Her memorial was this week and I wished I could have attended with my group of thrivers. Our diagnosis is very similar as well as our treatments. To make matters worse, I learned a young cousin of mine took his own life this week as well as my dear friend’s mother passing last week. It’s all been hard to digest I guess.
I catch myself thinking of things like my final wishes or funeral plans. Where should I be buried? Which songs would I want sung at my service? Should Al and I buy the dream property we have wanted for the last 28 years? I’ve been contacting insurance companies to convert my former life insurance the DOD provided, but the expense is astronomical. I understand this post is not starting out uplifting and seems melancholy; however, this is my reality. These are the questions I face everyday knowing I have a terminal disease. And Jen’s passing is a reminder as to how quickly this disease can overtake us.
But I’ll be damned if I will let it rule my thoughts for long. I will plan a future with my husband. I won’t go down without a fight. Mind over matter and a positive outlook really does change one’s thought process. When I look in the mirror, I do not see someone who is “sick.” I see a strong, God fearing woman with faith who refuses to allow this disease to control her life. Wake up and be grateful for what you have. No matter how hard things might seem, there is ALWAYS something for which to thank God. Live, love, laugh!
YOU are AMAZING, my friend! Keep on keeping on & staying strong. The lives you’re touching are innumerable. I know bc I’m one of them. Love you. 😘
Thank you Jody! Love you too
Always thinking of you💗💗
And I of you as well
I am so privileged to call you my friend! Your blogs are so inspiring to me and make me want to
continue to fight my battle.
Thank you for sharing that Sue and being vulnerable. I value our friendship as well. God bless
So many times I have had some of the same thoughts, Sweetie. But like you, I have to put my faith in God and say my prayers everyday.
I hope I can take some credit for raising such a strong woman as you are. I miss having you around all the time but at the same time I’m so proud that you are so independent. I take a lot of pride in you.
Love you to all the stars and back!!
luv mommy
Thank you Mom. I guess you and dad had something to do with it!! My poor mother-in-law sees it as a travesty I think that I don’t talk to you everyday. She said she has to talk to Amira multiple times a day and I know our niece and Amira are the same way! If it works for them…all the power to them. Love you too